今天的pharmaco prac好令人失望哦。bench work 改成了computer simulation。闷死了，差点就在LT里睡着了。5555... 没有小白鼠玩...

伤心啊...

前几个学期好像过得太轻松了。现在我才终于知道：药剂还真不是人学的。哪来这么多要背的东东啊？！左一个名称，右一个名称的。那些名称怎么看怎么陌生，弄得我头都大了。今天又拿到了共316页的drug monographs，想起来就头痛。咳，还真羡慕讲师们，他们的记忆还真是惊人嘞，随口就能说出个药名菌名什么的，似乎都难不到他们。看来我还有好多好多努力的空间...

A ZA!!

had my first microbio prac today. I thought staining would be easy but i was very very wrong. the first few staining methods are manageable. but i think most of us failed at acid-fast and spore staining (at least i didn't succeed. and my lab partners didn't as well). It's so difficult!! the stains kept washing away and we kept observing only one colour T.T But overall, the prac is fun. bacteria actually look quite cute under the microscope =p

pharmaco is hard. The concept is already quite difficult to grasp and yet the lecturer still goes through the notes damn fast. This is the first time i stepped out from the LT　without learning anything. No wonder he warned us that we would need textbooks. Right after class, i saw quite a few classmates rushing into co-op to buy textbooks. Guess i'm going to need one too...

But i really don't see the point why he has to rush through the lecture when he can afford to slow down to explain the pathways clearly to us. After all, the LT is booked for 2h. Why not make full use of it? 1h per lecture is definitely not enough....

I wanted to make myself useful. I wanted so much to help. But for the first time in my life, i'm powerless to do anything. The last time he came to visit,he already showed signs of hypersomnia and memory loss. That is abnormal. And yet i didn't realize. I was too busy avoiding and ignoring him. If only i had paid more attention....

Now, I can only hope that he will always recognise us...